After the tear
Have you ever had something affect you so much more than it should? A simple word? A less than lively reaction? Something that would normally never bother you but that suddenly makes you want to cry. That is what happened to me. Perhaps it was the hormones, maybe even the lack of food but in that moment I shed a tear. As I retold the moment a few moments later I shed another tear, this time I shed a tear for not being strong enough to stop the first one. Something extraordinary happened in that moment, I realized that the people that were upsetting me were not going to change in that moment but I could and I did. I made a proposal to myself, the only person I could truly change was myself. I had a pretty amazing day afterwards. I spoke to the stranger on the train and trainer at my class. I laughed and laughed and I thanked God. Thanked Him for letting me come to that realization, thanked Him knowing that I am nothing without Him and that I am so blessed to be able to turn to Him.